I woke up thinking where has the time gone?  Where have I been?  What have I done?  That’s enough to overwhelm any woman enjoying her first cup of coffee for the day!  Ugh!  So what’s the panic all about?

The last month has been a bit challenging again in terms of personal growth.  I’m not sure why I continue to throw myself into the utter uncomfortable feelings of “growth” but I seem to be somewhat addicted to change, process, integrate, grow….next. :)  Growth is so painful and excruciating at times that I’m beginning to appreciate why so many prefer the status quo.  For the first time ever I wasn’t sleeping.  Up at 2am with Champagne (my nearly 17 year old Yorkie who looks at me dumbfounded), wondering around the apartment, settling back down around 4am.  One night I worked my way up to a full blown panic attack.  Incredible.

I’m a tangible type of woman.  I like to touch my goal, see my goal, hold my goal.  This summer’s goals however have been much more about feeling.  I have nearly completed two three year training programs, I am striving toward better communication skills and I am trying to embrace my “new workout” of landing in my body for longer periods of time.  Certainly not the type of goals one can measure or wrap her arms around, but definately ones that I am experiencing on a cellular level. 

The body is an amazing resource of health, wealth and information.  It is the compass that can guide us with our lives.  It is an incredible work of art that masterfully moves us through our lives.  The challenge is to block the chaos and chatter of everyday life and listen to the life force within us. 

 Ahhh…there’s my top summer goal.  To befriend the life force within me. Now THAT would make for an amazing summer. :)