I am deeply rested. And I confused it with being unmotivated, blue, unsure how to move forward. Being unmotivated doesn’t even sound or feel like me. But it has been a very challenging 4+ months – personally and professionally. And I realized that the deep rest was so incredibly unfamiliar, that I mistook it for all things ‘wrong’ instead of ‘peace at last.’
Some days, I literally don’t have the stomach for this. And for the past 4+ months I can say I have done everything BUT move toward painful situations. In fact, I would say I have been running from these painful situtions, cloaking them instead with ‘tactical solutions.’ (OK – maybe once or twice I peaked my head out of the suffering). But when she writes about addictions being a “short-term pleasure for a long-term hell” – I know she’s speaking my language.
It’s not easy to lead an active lifestyle. It’s not easy to live moment by moment with a food program that supports you. It’s not easy to maintain a balanced life – whatever that means to you. But as Pema reminds us “We can make ourselves miserable, or we can make ourselves strong. The amount of effort is the same.”
Wishing you a day filled with peace, breath and the courage to move toward your painful situations.
I’m hoping you’ll move with me.