Two steps forward, collapse, stand, start again.  This has been my body sensation for the past couple of weeks.  I am amazed at how this transition is still in process as I reshape my personal and professional life.  I’m sure I have gone through transition before, but this time is different.  I am working so hard to not numb it with food.

With a history of bulimia, I wonder if it ever goes away.  While I am not sick anymore, I can feel how the binge eating disorder could quickly replace the purging.  But it’s still not that this time.  Instead, my body is speaking – or trying to speak – louder than my head for the first time in my life.  What an incredible sensation.

Everything in me says to move slowly… my head thinks otherwise.  But this has to be different this time… my body sensations are my key to long-term health.  And I stand here shocked at times when all indications substantiate and verify my body’s needs. 

When I spoke at the American Electrologist Conference this past month, an attendee asked me what I did for myself in terms of keeping in shape.  “LAND in my body once a day,” I replied.  And there it was… my new workout.  And this much I know to be true.  I can have long-term health, happiness, success, weight management and fulfilling relationships when I honor what is happening in my body.  

This is the continued direction of my work, personally and professionally.  The relationship one develops with one’s body – the ability to land in it, sense it, listen to it – this is truly living in grace.  This promises to be my greatest workout ever :)