I realize it has been nearly 2 months since I have posted and when I look back in my personal journal, I remember it being such a challenging time.  Ugh…another growth spurt.  I guess we never really get “there…” both the good news and the bad news.  The good news is we are always growing – the bad news is we are always growing, if we so choose, and must energetically reorganize around the growth process. 

There are a two entries that hit me now more clearly. 

“It’s no longer the quiet I fear, but the darkness.”  It’s incredibly challenging to sit in the quiet and FEEL.  The good, the bad and the ugly.  But the ability to be there has really helped me begin to navigate a new, unfamiliar path in my life. 

And the second entry, “I do not want to hear what she is saying to me.”  Champagne and I had been sitting together outside on the stoop, her health already challenged, but I could not listen in that moment.  Fortunately, as May moved into June, I was able to shift my relationship with her and be in the quiet, acknowledging the inevitable.  This is life.

I will write more about her, but for today, my heart can only express so much.  I am back.  I am sad.  But I am blessed to have had such a full life with her.

My sincere thanks to all of you for your patience, understanding and compassion.  It’s not always easy to let you know when things aren’t going well in life, but this is life, in all its glory, splendor and grief. 

To feel all of this, to feel life,  is to deeply honor the depth of our energetic selves.